Letter to The One. Nr.4

My Dear,....I am living my life now in such a way as you would already be here...in such a way that you wouldn't be ashamed of me. I live it to respect you.
I promise you this: that I will keep my promises to you.
I promise you that one's I will get a hold of your hand I will never let go of that hand.
I promise to follow you where you go and to lean on you and your strong shou

lder.
I promise to run to your side when you are sick and sty there even if you send me away.
I promise to watch over you when you sleep and protect you from bad dreams.
I promise to be kind and caring and never miss on feeding you your meals so you can stay strong and healthy.
I promise to always listen to your word and say sorry when I'm wrong and I make you feel upset.
I promise to stay by your side even if others will try to take us apart and would chase me and send me away. I will be that strong for you.
I promise to cherish each moment good or bad next to you and hold your hand till we grow old, with wrinkles and thin white hair. But even then wont be enough....cause I will follow you and walk with you in our after life....

So come soon, to me....

Letter to The One. Nr.3

I will promise you this: I will fight to protect you your name and your honor in front of others. When others will try to bring you or your name down....I will not sit still until i will make it all right. Even if I will have to suffer pain, scorn, shame for you're name I will do it. I will protect you from tears and and pain...and even if at times you won't understand why I am

 acting weird or keep you away....Please do not forget to trust me.
There will be times when you won't understand why I am silent.
A precious thing is in a place you cannot see and it is so frustrating.
If you only look at what you can see, you won't understand why I would be like that. So then....then you would have to trust me and know that I will do everything that stays in my power to protect you and at the right time you will see the truth...and I will come back to you.

Letter to The One Nr.2

When you will hold me in your strong arms I will feel protected and warm....and no wind will be able to get to me.

While holding me I wish you would say:' Do you know what you are to me??
Your the most precious thing in the world, so precious that when I look at you too much you might change. You're someone I don't dare to look at or touch too much because you are so lovely. I ask my self each time I see you whether you are really mine. You are someone who makes me laugh like a dummy even when I am alone. 
Because you are the one I love so much.
I want to wager my everything to make sure I can protect you as mine.
That is who you are to me.'

Letters to The One. Nr.1

Letter to The One:
My dear one... when you will meet me...I wish you would take me home after a nice walk in the park and then you would tell me: You should go in. Sleep good. Have good dreams.
Me: Yes...I will go in first. And you get home safely.

Then I walk away... and you watch me going in, happy you see me safe at home...and sighing because you will have to count the minutes till you will walk me again home.
Till then I shall wait and take that path towards my house alone but imagining I'm already holding your hand.

So what if my heart still skips a bit.....

So what am I gonna do if my heart still skips a bit just for you?

I've learned to love with my heart and not with my mind.

I've learned from my own mistakes that if I let the shadows of the past crawl up to the surface, it can blind me to see the real you.

You've thought me to dodge the spits and ugly tongues of the world,... and dig deeper through.

I've learned to love you for who you are... and what's within you.

You're not an image a projection of what I wish you should be.

You are you.... and your real....and for that I love you.

Months have past bye. It's only been a few,.... but they feel like ages...and this...isn't

getting any better.

I thought time will heal.   But thee feelings are still there.

No!!!.... ohhh no... they are not the same. Now they grew stronger, surer...

even thou your not here any more.

It's clearer everyday....how I feel, and that hurts even more cause i know

I can't bring you back....and now I can never share and let you know

that my heart is open.

Anguish, guilt, ....love, conviction, pain, sorrow, remorse.....they all creeping up on me.

New feelings....old feelings they shouldn't be together.

They shouldn't be at all. Cause you'r  not here.

I thought time should heal...But why do I feel like with time this

will all come back time and time again.....stronger and stronger.

So what if my heart  still skips a beat at the sound of your name?

So what?

I've become numb to everyone else....my heart and my mind are flooded with you.

And I rather have all this to hang on then not have anything at all

from You.


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O zi de vara!

Celebrez!!!....Celebrez ca sunt,

Desi o fiinta incompleta,

In propri-mi ochi

Cu mai multe pete si defecte

Cu vise si dorinte  pierdute,

Dar eu uit de toate toate,

Acum cand tu imi esti aproape.

Stiu ca sunt o fiinta franta

Mult prea departe  pentru a ajunge o sfanta.

Ma podidesc lacrimile cand ma uit intr-o oglinda.

Si vad pana-n coltul inimii

In strafundul sufletului amarnic.

O fiinta mica si blajina,

Ce cauta doar un petec mic de speranta si lumina.

Doar prin ochii tai ma vad eu altfel,

Caci tu nu vezi franturi sau aschii,

Cum le vad eu sau altii.

Splendoare, stralucire,... vezi acol

Unde intunerecul prin amurg se-nbina.

Mireasma de craite ce prin flori vesniv alearga,

Nu zgomote, nu tanguiala, ci o voce ce-ti doineste

O voce a sufletului si Pacea mintii

E tot ce-mi aduci tu aminte.

In linistea serii si-n amurgul rugaciunii

In mijlocul unei veri ce nu vreau sa se mai termine

Cu freamatul vantului bland in plete

Cu mirosul ierbii si mangaierea florilor de vara

Stau si cant stelelor din a mea cununa

Si-ti mangai fata blanda si mainile ti le aduc la gura..

Nu vreau sa uit acest moment si vreau sa-l iau

Mereu cu mine,...

Precum si parfumul ce ne inconjoara

Cu al lui dimineti senine.

N-am sa dau uitarii ...gustului de zmeura

Cu care imi infruptai fagura gurii

Si nici privirea-ti scoditoare

Atunci cand ma luptam cu spinii,

Sau atunci cand rupand o floare

Deranjam lumea unei albine muncitoare

Mi-ai spus  cu lacrimi razand,

Ca un copil cu o voce tematoare,

Ca lumea-ti in jur ti-e indiferenta

Si ca fara de mine in ea nu ar mai fi soare.

Freamatul codrilor imi canta rasul tau

Izul ierbii...imi trezeste simturile

Si-mi reaminteste de pielea-ti imbalsamata

Ce-o atingea pe a mea catifelata.

Cerul-mi oglindeste-n ochi

Si-mi zambeste ca si ochi-ti plini de raze,

Iata asa eu numai cred si nu mai pot sa uit;

Ca atunci cand esti tu langa mine...

Nimic si nimeni numai conteaza..

Caci eu numai sunt ceea ce am fost,

O fiinta franta si plina de defecte.

Iar acum esti tu aici si m-ai spalat de pete...

Iata in  ochii tai numai sunt ce am crezut ca sunt,

Doar un om cu dorinte si vise neamplinite

Da.... tu ai schimbat totul, atunci cand ai venit

Cu pasi marunti si paspait.

Iar acum sunt libera si frumoasa

 Caci doar tu m-ai privit si fermecat deodata.

Mie atat de dor....

Mie dor de sunetul care il face un tren pe caile ferate romane....care parcurge  sute de kilometrii prin campii de mii de culori.

Mie dor sa aud tineri veseli cantand la chitari despre drumetii, iubiri de vara...si chiote de bucurie ca e din nou vacanta.

Mie dor sa stau pe culoarul trenului cu capul scos pe geam, cu vantul in par, cu mirosuri si miresme in nari, si cu suieritul trenului grabit in urechi care se grabeste sa ma duca cat mai repede la capat de tara.

Mie dor sa stau cu usa trenului deschisa din cauza caldurii toropitoare, si sa privesc cum las in urma razele de soare, campiile si muntii...si ma intrept spre litoral.

Mie dor sa intalnesc straini veseli care au mii de povesti si povestiri de viata....ganduri despre viitor.....si vise ptr prezent care le impart cu cate un strain ce trec pentru putin prin viata lor.

Mie dor sa leg noi prietenii cu oameni necunoscuti, sa impart o bucata de ciocolata...sau o bucata de slanina si ceapa ce foamea-ti alina pana la destinatie.

Mie dor sa simt cum calatoria e ceea ce face ca destinatie sa fie mai apoape atunci cand iti alaturi inima de zeci de oameni necunoscuti ce merg chiar si doar putin pe acelas drum si in aceesi directie cu tine.

Mie dor sa spun adio sau La revedere!...pe mai tarziu,......sau sper sa ne mai vedem, imi pare bine ca ne-am cunoscut.....atunci cand drumurile necunoscutilor se despart.

Mie atat de dor…..

Tu chip ce nu poti fi uitat

Cand inchid ochii vad chipul unui copil
M-am indragostit de ochii lui si de al lui grai,
Al lui voce imi rasuna mereu in ganduri si in soapte,
Oricand si oriunde, fie ca e zi fie ca e noapte.
Are un chip bland si balai,
Intind mana sa-l simt aproape, dar acum
Amintirea-i prea departe.
Nimic si nimeni nu-i va lua locul
Nici chiar vantul si nici sorocul.
Numele-i citesc in stele si in semne
Il aud la orice pas, pe buzele strainilor
In carti in ziare si in filme.
Iar oricat incerc eu sa tai cu foarfeca
Sa spal cu clor amintirea-i blanda
Mereu va fi ceva... sau cineva sa-mi reaminteasca,
Fiinta-i scumpa si copilareasca.
Nu!... nu s-a terminat inca.....povestea inca se scrie,
atata timp cat el si amintirea sa e inca vie.